My Second Puberty

Today I'm 23 and feeling great!  . . . sort of. My health is doing fine. Everything feels normal and strong except my pubic bone is killing me. It really hurts to get out of bed when I'm lying down. I asked some women on Facebook if they were having similar issues and many of them suggested I see an osteopath. I've never been one to run to the doctor when something doesn't feel good, but with a baby in tow, it's tempting. I had a nice workout yesterday - did cardio and some back and arms training. I've noticed my back and arms are my least favorite part of my body. Every time I look in the mirror I don't like what I see. Decided I better do something about it then. Anyway, about the baby. It's now moving its eyes under its still-shut eyelids. It can hear loud sounds like dogs barking or the vacuum running. As well, it can apparently feel my movements - particularly when I dance. I think that's my favorite fact from this week's reveal. I...

You know, I know there are so many people out there who are going through really bad pregnancies. I'm not one of them. My little baby has been chugging along with absolutely no issues. To that, I might add, I have been mostly fine. Aside from a tiny bit of nausea here and there, and what I now know were dehydration headaches, I've been great. But one thing that is really pissing me off is the lack of support I'm getting from my mom. I realize that she's 8000 miles and 8 time zones away, but I'm not talking about physical support. I need emotional support. And not even the cry-on-your-shoulder kind either. Just a little check in here and there. Mom has been really hard to please this whole pregnancy. First she got angry because we wanted to wait until Christmas day to find out what the sex of the baby will be. She was angry because she'd miss all the baby sales!!! Are you fucking kidding me? I didn't respond with are you fucking kidding, I simply said...

So I'm 22 +1 today and I don't know why but lately I have been uninspired to write on this blog. I realize that I'll regret that decision later, so I really need to get that mojo back. At 22 weeks I'm starting to get a little belly. I joke with my husband that I'm starting to look like a little teapot because I'm so short and round. HA! The baby is doing well. We had our scan on Tuesday and everything looks perfect and healthy. All the bones and major organs are working well and growing as they should be. At 22 weeks the baby is covered in soft, downy hair its eyelids are fully formed and he or she is about 11 inches long, and around 1 pound. Ooooh I can't tell you how excited I get thinking about this baby. I know there's going to be a lifetime of great and sprinkles of really bad, but something about this baby makes me feel so much joy - like I've never felt before. It's amazing how I get to grow a freaking human! I'm so thankful ...

Today I'm 21 weeks, waaaahooo! Baby is the size of a carrot (or 10.5 inches) and weighs nearly a pound. Its eyebrows and lids are forming as well as its ability to swallow and breathe. I've felt movement consistently now and it makes me so happy. Apparently, babies get hiccups around this time and I'm wondering what that feels like in the womb. My belly is still relatively small and can be hidden in most of my clothes. Another two months before we get to find out what we're having, but I don't mind. We went to a baby flea market today and all the baby stuff made me feel emotional. I came home and cried about an inability to buy baby socks. Really it's just that I want to make more money. The socks were irrelevant. As we were eating shitty tuna rolls and cheese, I started to cry crocodile tears about bloody baby socks! And my husband innocently says to me, "why do these socks matter so much? The baby won't even wear socks in the beginni...

Not much to report today. The baby was much more active though which makes me pretty happy. I need to just get a grip and believe everything will be perfectly fine. It started moving around from morning and I still feel little squirms even as I type. It's a fascinating experience that I'm so honored to get the chance to go through. Not that I pity those that don't, rather I just wish everyone could experience what it feels like to make another human. Perhaps we would have less hate in the world? Not sure if that resonates though. There must be loads of hateful moms out there. Tomorrow is 21 weeks ^_^ xo Jenea - Everything is always okay in the end; and if it's not okay, then it's not the end.

Something weird is going on with my body. It feels like my tummy is getting smaller, not bigger, these past couple of days. Even the hardness of the bump seems to have gone soft. My appetite isn't nearly as ravenous as it was even a few weeks ago. And my headaches have disappeared, although I'm almost positive it's because I'm drinking insane amounts of water every day (4 liters or more). My breasts have started developing bulging veins and still seem to be growing. And I still feel the baby's kicks or movements throughout the day, though some days he or she is more active than others. I've also noticed if I curl myself up in a ball or lean forward while I sit I can feel more movements from the baby. I wonder if it's because the baby doesn't like that or because I've moved everything closer together to feel movement. I'm curious, though, whether some of the spasms I feel are actually gas and not the baby moving around. Everything I feel...

YES! I'm halfway there! Today we're at 20 weeks strong. The baby is 10 inches from head to toe, and doing backflips in my uterus. I loooove it! He or she is the love of my life already they're not even here. It's a shame that men can't experience the joy of cooking a baby. What else is happening with baby? Well if it's a girl, her uterus is formed. He or she is producing bile now that we'll see in their first dirty diaper. They are also sucking their thumb and swallowing more and more. I've read that after this week I should expect to put on about 1 pound a week (I'm aiming for one pound every two weeks since I was overweight when I got pregnant). Not the most awesome news, but I'm just happy my baby still seems healthy. xo Jenea - Everything is always okay in the end; and if it's not okay, then it's not the end.