The Pursuit of Purpose

How do parents square the circle of passion versus stability? And I don't really mean passion, I mean doing a job that has meaning.

When I think about my entrepreneurial pursuits, sometimes I get caught daydreaming (or having daymares) that I won't be able to provide for my family. Then I start wondering if I should just go get a job. At least I'll have a steady paycheck every month.

My husband and I have made a plan that, as of now, does not seem like it's going to work out. We're banking on a hope and a prayer that my business takes off and we can move to America for a fresh start. Of course, there's a plan in place to get to a place where I can provide for us, but it's only based on research, not actual experience.

Unfortunately, things just aren't going fast enough. I can't see where all of this leads me and it's terrifying. Especially with a baby on the way.

Today I feel overwhelmed and sad. Sad that I'm not in a better position. Sad that my husband has to carry the weight of this family. Sad that I don't have a better, more sound plan to move forward.

xo Jenea
- Everything is always okay in the end; and if it's not okay, then it's not the end.

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