Thinking Of You

Every couple of hours I catch myself thinking "Woah! I'm having a baby!"

It's like I'm learning about it for the first time and it feels so good each time I say it.

I really hope being a mommy is blissful. I know I'll have my moments, but I hope there are more butterflies than stones.

Funny thing is, I don't really like other people's children. Kids usually like me - a lot. But I don't fancy them much.

I've never been one of those women who go nuts over little babies or children. I've met loads of those women, and there's nothing wrong with them, but it's not me.

I have, however, fantasized about having a family. A husband and a couple of kiddos. Living in a nice house near water and great weather. But those fantasies never center around children.

Now I dream about meeting my baby. Wondering what kind of person it'll be and if we'll get along well. Hoping that it's caring but assertive, wise, but humble.

Oh, I can't wait to meet this little one. I think about it all day and night.

xo Jenea
- Everything is always okay in the end; and if it's not okay, then it's not the end.

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